:D

Dream

2009-02-04T16:49:00.003+08:00

I've a nightmare yesterday.
I dreamt that someone poisoned one of my friends to death.
And it turned out that the person who poisoned my friends was actually my lecturer.
Out of fury, my bro ( I dunno how he came into the pic) and I went to confront that lecturer..
He did not feel guilty..
Instead, he let out a wicked laugh and spoke words of sarcasm.
After that a fight broke out.
The lecturer died in the end.

Weird dream~

Out of Here.

2009-02-03T12:36:00.003+08:00

After what had happened,
I am truly determined to go UK for my last year of degree.
I'll concentrate better if I'm out of this domineering place.
This place is hell.
It's as though Hitler had resurrected and possessing her body.
Trust me.

:@

2009-01-27T12:37:00.009+08:00

IN THIS LIFETIME,

I'LL NEVER FORGET HOW MUCH YOU MAKE ME HATE YOU!!!!

If my wish can ever be granted,
I want to disappear out of here.
Everything's so fake.
I feel faint.
I can hardly breathe..
That's why I hardly look forward to a new year..
There's no meaning in resolution, wishes, hopes.. .. ..
What for to hope, wish and resolute when I cant even live out of my nightmare.
Yes, for 21 years, I've been living in a nightmare.
A nightmare I cant seem to avoid.
How can I wake up from this nightmare?
HOW?? !!

爱太痛

2008-11-08T14:23:00.006+08:00

作词：吳克群作曲：吳克群

吃不能吃睡不能睡
沒有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容來把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能睡~

吃不能吃睡不能睡
沒有了你全都不對
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容來把眼泪催眠

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能夠
不能夠不爱了

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能夠
不能夠不爱了

吃不能吃睡不能睡

Damn Suay.

2008-11-07T17:50:00.007+08:00

While riding to East Coast Park this morning,
I met with an accident.
Buang my bike into the railing and I got skidded to the stone floor.
My knees landed first, thus it's pain like fuck now.
My fingers got scrapped too as a result to my carelessness.
I dunno why it happened.
But I'll be extra careful the next time.
I've to send my bike for repairs.
Haiz..
My dad saw my injury and claimed that it is swollen.
And asked whether I wanna play badminton tmr.
Should I??
Haha.

Kangaroo, Happy Birthday!! =)

2008-11-02T16:28:00.006+08:00

Can't find a reason how anyone can twist the truth to such a large extend.
Walao!!
Very li pu..
Super kua zhang.
Damn pissed off!!
zzz....

Hit QB pub at Boat Quay yesterday night with Avan, Ben, WP and kangaroo..
The ambience there's still alright..
It just has this cosy feeling to sing, drink and hang out.
We played bluff with dice..
It was fun..
Avan deliberately ordered jugs of tiger beer for the punishment.
Punished with a gulp.
It sucks terribly!!
But that was his point.
Haha..
The guys tried to drunk kangaroo as it was her birthday..
They wanted to drunk me too..
But after knowing that I stayed at the other side of Singapore from them,
They decided to go lenient on me.
Lol~
Will try to post some pics if I get my hands on them.
Overall, it was an interesting fun night out!

The facade

2008-11-01T15:29:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling very depressed.
I hate liars and betrayals.
Yet you lied to me.
Maybe I don't mean anything to you.
But you mean damn lot to me..
I told you my reason for clubbing was because of halloween..
In actual fact, it's because of you.
I can't believe you lied to me.
Why did you have to bluff me??
Isn't honesty always the best policy??
I don't mind what your answer was..
But in the end, you chose to cheat me.
Haiz..

Got to go for Kangaroo's birthday..
But I've no mood to go out..
How to persevere till at night??
Sigh..
I wanna sleep~

Happy Halloween!!

2008-11-01T02:38:00.003+08:00

Happy Halloween!!!
Okay.. I know it's already past midnight.
But as long as I have not slept,
It's not the next day for me.
haha..

Zouk today was damn packed with people.
Very Kua zhang!
Took million years to get from one place to another..
Great place to party and have fun..
Lots of hilarious costume..
Such as the Domo and the PAP..
Wahaha~
Among all the costumes,
I like the PAP one.
Creative and realistic.
Super tired, sleepy and hungry..
So, getting to bed now.

:D

:)

2008-10-30T21:18:00.004+08:00

Today's a happy day..
Went gym in the morning..
Almost broke my knee..
But no worries..
I still can walk.
:)

After my work out,
Went to meet PK at interchange..
He bought me an egg sandwich on his own accord..
Very thoughtful of him.
Together, we traveled to the airport to study.
Finally, I can study in peace without any drilling or motor noise..
As night was approaching, we went TM's Ajisen for dinner...
Shot some balls over at the arcade.
He's a pro.
300+ points..
4th section.
Win me by two third.
Damn it!
Need more practice..
Haha.
Prefer playing court basketball to arcade ones.
The feel is totally different.
lol~
I'm super sleepy now..
Yawn~

No title....

2008-10-30T00:07:00.005+08:00

Woke up at 7am today due to some drilling and honking of the cars..
The last time I woke up so early was secondary days.
The construction downstairs my house is nearly driving me insane.
Cant sleep and study.
Why do they have to make construction work early in the morning?

At night, met my ex-wife at Bugis .
She almost killed me as I was late 20mins.
It's the bloody traffic jam due to peak hours..
How to avoid it ??
She let me off after promising her ice mocha.
Had a nice long chat with her at Mos Burger.
She's as funny as usual.
kept laughing till my stomach ached.
Found out her secrets..
Eh ex-wife, not bad eh!!
Wahahaha!

:D

闷~

2008-10-28T23:03:00.001+08:00

How to mend a friendship that was broken and lost a long time ago??

:(

很烦...

2008-10-28T10:50:00.006+08:00

It's getting on my nerves!
Hearing the same old naggings,
Listening to an ever non-ending blabberings of what I should and not do.
It's an everyday affair.
If I still did what I should not do in your eyes after hearing it daily,
It's obviously deliberate.
It's not that I opt to be defiant or rebellious.
But I feel that what it's wrong for you doesn't imply to me.
Every little thing is wrong..
So what's actually right ??
I think that everyone has the right to make decisions for themselves.
Will you ever get that point??

你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐

2008-10-27T15:29:00.005+08:00

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦
或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然后才后悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

你是真正的快乐吗??
Who's truly happy in this world??

No title.

2008-10-25T22:13:00.005+08:00

As stated in the previous post,
I went JB with PK today.
The human jam at the custom was overwhelming~
Waited over million years for my passport to be stamped.
What's the point in installing the fan and air con when they don't on it?
That question was behind my mind.
The family who queued behind me was pretty annoying.
Kept complaining non-stop.
Yes, I know it's fucking humid, hot, stuffy, 'perspiration-flooding' and it's already million years yet the passports aren't stamped yet..
But will complaining do any help??
Will it make the custom officer to speed up their fingers and let them realise that it's already million years and it's high time to get efficient?
Besides that, I was thinking what to eat as I was damn hungry,
Planning my schedule for the coming week.
It's interesting how so many things were occurring behind my brain.

Besides the custom thingy,
Everything went smooth sailing..
A pretty happy day.
Due to NS, it's been awhile since I last went out with PK.
Had a nice long conversation with him.
Relinquished Poly days when we'll chat as if there's only 2 of us in the team.
A great buddy to chat with.
Watched Tropic Thunder..
Damn boring lar!
I almost fell asleep in the cinema.
Don't watch it!!

I want to sing K~~~

Rain, rain, go away.

2008-10-24T11:42:00.005+08:00

Very Kuazhang lar..
It has been drizzling and raining non-stop since afternoon yesterday.
Li pu!
Why don't it just pour for awhile and then let the sun shine bright again?
How to go out later like that??
How to go train like that?
Super brrrrrrrrr...
Hope the rain won't be a stumbling block for my friend's POP later.
Jiayou wor~

Can't wait for my ass to leave this island.
Gonna cross the borders tmr.
Hope we'll be safe and sound.
And we'll remember to bring our passports.
lol~

PS: Bell, I miss that pint of white beer.. Let's go Alps again lar!! HAHAHA!

:D

give me a jug.

2008-10-19T17:43:00.004+08:00

This time I'm in deep shit.
I can't control it anymore.
Dejection never felt so strong before.

I need back my strength.

But how to regain it back??

:(

2008-10-18T12:58:00.007+08:00

I HATE IT !!!

其实我早已经猜透看透不想多说..
我不想拆穿你.

其实我是怕眼泪撑不住..

Why?

Questions.

2008-09-29T01:59:00.010+08:00

Ling asked me to do this..
So here it goes..

01) Name.
Priscilla Su Jingyi

02) What was your dream growing up?
Being an Olympic swimmer.

03) What talent do you wish you had?
The ability to read minds and being a top-notch comforter.

04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Bubble Tea. LOL.

05) Favorite vegetable?
Spinach.

06) What was the last book you read?
Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult.

07) What zodiac sign are you?
Virgo.

08) Your idea of a perfect life?
Being able to surf daily; Living in a hut by the sea with wine by my side.

09) Worst Habit?
Lazing in bed.

10) Most embarassing event/moment?
Can't remember..honestly.

11) What is your goal in life?
Living everyday with a smile.

12) Tell me your idea of a perfect migration experience and where it would take place.
Hmm.. staying by the beach at Australia with close friends, talking and laughing with them as though no one else exists and learning some surfing stunts with them.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Try my best to comfort you and let you feel it's not yet hell.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Knowing that my love ones deliberately betray and hurt me.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
Hmm.. one only? I'm a pretty weird person..at least that's what my les feels. Haha.

16) Do you remember any childhood memories worth mentioning?
My bro, cousin and I would bully my dad by making him buy us ice-cream if we manage to win him in sea-saw. So we'll gang up to get my dad's wooden plank down. HEHE!

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
I'll invite you in graciously.

18) What was your first impression of me?
Another councillor.. LOL.. but you've made me change your impression as we grew closer. :D

19) Your idea of a what you would wear (head to toe) on a great night out.
Something comfortable; T-shirt with jeans and dunk shoes.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
Hmm.. good question. Haven't thought of it.

21) Your idea of a perfect partner.
One that is caring and who understands me, love me more than he love himself, one who don't have to worry about financial issues, love sports especially water ones, able to share with me his problems, able to make me laugh uncontrollably.

22) What kind of a friend u perceive me to be to you.
This question seems familiar! 0_0
Reliable and able to confide to.

23) Your targets/acheivements by the end of this year.
To slim down.

24) The most expensive thing you've ever purchased.
Air tickets. Bomb man!

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
The amount has finally increased!! HAHA! But can increase further? I'm not being greedy lar.. But I cant buy a condo with ten thousand.

27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
Coffee cafes and the airport.

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
Kind of.

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Cycling!

30) Do you swear a lot?
Depends.. If I'm fucking pissed. HAHA! :P

31) Biggest pet peeve?
Waking my sleep by unlocking my door with the key. The "TAK" sound will drive me mad..not literally.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
Weird.

33) one wish, what would it be?
Being able to forget some sunken-deep foul memories.

34) Favourite and least favourite food?
Favourite food - Ban Mian.
Least favourite food - Bee Hoon soto or Mee Soto.

35) Do you believe in God?
Definitely. With all my heart.

Tag Questions.

2008-09-13T00:13:00.007+08:00

Got tagged by ling.
So here it goes..

1. What are your nicknames?
Sotong. hmm..can't remember.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Take off my contacts, Put my bear into a corner where I won't kick him down while sleeping and then lay my bed properly for comfort sake.

3. What shampoo brand do you use?
Pantene. -_-

4. What is your favorite scent?
Benetton Sport.

5. What video games are you playing at the moment?
'Call of Duty' on my PSP when it got hanged at Taiwan. Eventually, it died on me. Very fedup!

6. What do you eat the most?
Noodles? Ban Mian! LOL!

7. Do you trust easily?
Not really. There's a distinct of trust between good friends and friends.

8. What's the oldest piece of clothing in your wardrobe?
My kindergarten Giodano Tees which had been carried down to my bear. HAHA!

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Nope. Currently enjoying my life. But if I have to dig out one, that would be the weather at Taiwan. It was a freaking natural sauna. !_!

10. Do you have a good body-image?
Eh, does it mean how i portrait myself to others or? elaborate???

11. Is being tagged fun?
Let me re-phrase this question. Is wasting of time enjoyable????
12. What websites do you visit daily?
Blogs, Youtube, GV, Cathay.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family and close friends. Those that i'll make an effort to show concern for.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Sensible and diligent. Someone that I can trust and confide to. A friend difficult to find, in a positive way.

15. What’s the last song that got stuck in your head?
眼泪笑了 by 刘力扬. Very meaningful lyrics.

16. What’s your favorite item of clothing?
Sports tee/Polo and jeans.

17. What's your all time favourite drink?
Cafe Latte/Mocha Cafe Latte.

18. If you had $1,000 in cash, what would you do with it?
Can increase the amount???

19. What items could you not go without during the day?
Depends on whether i'm outside or at home.

20. What do you want to buy right now?
A condo. So I do not have to travel when going swimming and gym. I can also sell it off and gain profit when the time is right. And I wanna learn tennis!

21. If you could go on an exchange to any country, where would it be?
An exchange = Not migrating, right??
If that is the case, that would be Australia.
I wanna witness surfing live.
I wanna experience surfing.

Heart-Broken

2008-08-08T21:04:00.002+08:00

My heart sank when I saw something.
Maybe I should continue focusing on my training and spend lesser time online.
Finally I understood everything.
"I'll wait for you" was rubbish.

:(

ha ha!

2008-08-07T21:12:00.005+08:00

Today is a joyous day for me.
No, it is not anyone's birthday to celebrate.
But rather, I've managed to complete reading a thick book ever since santa rode on earth.
So, it is considered a big accomplishment to me.
That book had made reading my best friend.
I've come to terms with it.
No doubt that a good book will leave you thinking..
It left me with many questions to ponder...

The best.

2008-07-15T20:42:00.009+08:00

I realised that happiness is not what you achieve through human might
But rather by God who strengthens me with each passing day.
He's also the one that blessed me with a good family and doting parents.
Though they can be nagging at times..
But they are still humans..
Which human being does no wrong?
So, I hope that God will pour his patience, forgiveness and deliverance onto me..
To let me forgive people and count my blessings.

As my 21st birthday is fast approaching,
I have made plans to go Taiwan and Hong Kong with my good friend.
This trip is special as I'll be spending my friend's 21st birthday as well.
Looking forward to it! (:
Felt very blessed as my parents sponsored two-third of the expenses.
On top of that,
Mom bought me a key necklace and ring as the friendly salesperson told her that a key necklace is a cliche yet significant 21st present.
In layman term,
It is a must-have present for humans turning 21.
I don't support the must-have present part..
But it is my parents' love for me and a good reminder to depart my childish behavior.

Also, mom brought me to Pizza Hut for lunch and Crystal Jade for dinner.
Yes, I know that I said this many times..
But I must say it again..
CRYSTAL JADE'S DUCK IS STILL THE BEST!!
haha
It has this special taste which no other duck hawkers can marinate it.
It certainly lives up to its name.
Before dinner,
I came across this Molten basketball that I like very much.
It is the one that I would normally use at RP.
Makes me reminisce the basketball times in RP.
The feel of it is indescribable.
It's like Michael Jordon dunking.
Makes me fall in love with the sport every moment I lay my hands on it.

To conclude,
God indeed loves me alot through my parents.
In times of needs and exasperation,
He's the one that satisfies all.
God is good!

:D

!!!

2008-06-22T00:16:00.003+08:00

When is airforce gonna send me their reply?
Can faster anot?
Approve or not
Just send me the fucking letter or e-mail of confirmation.
Through snail mail or e-mail.
I just want the answer!
Bloody hell..
It's making me itch all over.
Efficient, my arse!

-_-

..

2008-06-21T02:02:00.008+08:00

Recently, I've became a busybody.
Poking my nose in other's business..
Why have I become like that?
Maybe they're my friends?
Or am I just being an irritant?
Hai.
I'm disappointed.
I'll change..
To one that doesnt cares.
I shall just take care of my own arse and make sure I stay out of trouble.
Being a human without feelings is better.
At least it can save me from the heartwrench and negative feelings.

:(

.

2008-06-19T18:08:00.003+08:00

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you

- Extracted from Kelly Clarkson lyrics, Because of You.

Gone with the wind.

2008-06-14T12:32:00.001+08:00

There's no such thing as "I'll wait for you"
No one's indisposable in this world.

Whatsnot.

2008-06-13T00:35:00.007+08:00

While watching "The Black Book" with Jia Hao today, it abruptly dawned on me that movies nowadays are hopelessly obscene. It's not that I'm being close-minded about affections in movies but what's the thing with ladies being half-naked and guys showing their groins. It's as though paying to watch porn, isn't it? However, that show's literally bloody and interesting to watch. The war between Jews and Nazis. Afterwhich, I accompanied Jia Hao to buy his army stuff for his enlistment tmr. Reminded of my Airforce application, hopefully I'll get selected. Anyway, all the best for your enlistment tmr! :)

At night, I went to the dreaded Pc show with Ching Yee. It was outrageously crowded and it made me want to collapse with people trying to squeeze their way through. We got Orange her 21st birthday present, an external 250GB hard drive. She seemed to like it alot which makes the present even valuable and my night more meaningful. :D

Sex and The City

2008-06-10T09:35:00.014+08:00

Yesterday, I caught Sex and the City at the cinema. It seems that every week, I will watch movie with Ching Yee. Hence, she officially made me her movie kaki. LOL.

Sex and the City is a still-can-do movie because the movie's 2hrs and 25mins but I did not feel shagged at all after watching, unlike Da Vinci Code. Wa..I tell you ar.. it is the worst 2hrs+ movie I ever watched. Within the first hour, my eyelids already felt heavy and my ass starts to ache. No, it wasnt the post-bball game but rather, that movie's super draggy. I mean, how long can you show on the exquisite paintings and the mysteries of some treasure. Moreover, it was 2 hours looooooong. Anyway, Sex and the City's an 'open' movie in that sense, simple yet straightforward storyline with a touch of humour. Many erotic scenes but as the title suggests, you should have the rough idea before purchasing your tix, rite? (:

Extracted from the movie, "You two are crazy to get married. It destroys lives". That made me ponder.

I miss bball...

Everything is Time

2008-06-08T17:14:00.005+08:00

"He who owns the rebounds, rules the court."

- Inoue Takehiko

The Stress-Relieve Pill.

2008-06-05T00:19:00.006+08:00

Relieved that everything has come to an end.
I've learnt numerous lesson from this.
Know what I really expect in a r/s.
Not to rush into it anymore.
Guess everyone learns life precious principles along the way.
I'll be strong this time..
I won't cry.
I knew I tried my utmost best in this r/s.
What i regretted was the promises and places that we yearn to go has not been kept.
But it has always been this way, isn't it?
Whenever we want to do something, there's bound to have hiccups along the way.
Everything's fated.
It's a false start..
We're not meant to be in the first place.
Both our personality clashes..
We're both stubborn.
But life still goes on..
Tmr will be a brand new day.
:)

My inspiration has gone dry

2008-06-02T03:00:00.005+08:00

I've finally quitted my job.
Every cloud has its silver lining.
Now it's playtime month for me before I embark on my next study.
hahahaha..
:)

Recently, I've been feeling down..
So, my cousin asked me out for coffee tonight.
After not seeing her for a few months,
Finally, I managed to catch up with her.
Had a fun chat,
Sorted my thinking.
Now I know what I want.
Thank God for giving me a good companion cum cousin.

Some unspoken words.

2008-05-29T23:55:00.004+08:00

On Wednesday,
I did a most foolish thing a cyclist would ever do.
Which is to clutch the breaks tightly without the need to.
Thus, I'm left with injuries on my ass, back and knee with the attempt to stop myself from becoming superman.
At least I managed to save my bike.
But the pains are still left lingering.
"Pain, Pain
Go away,
Don't ever come back anymore."

It's happening again.
I don't like the feeling of this intuition of mine.
But it makes me wonder why humans relish in opposing forces.
It's okay if you dun understand what I'm trying to say.
Because firstly, I'm blogging for the sake of it.
Secondly, I just need to vent my frustrations.
It still boils down to the same thing.
It's my fault.

Corrinne May - Angel In Disguise

2008-04-09T00:06:00.002+08:00

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places,
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new.

Those were the joyous days..

2008-03-29T01:31:00.006+08:00

I miss those days when I would play bball after school with dear..
Concentrating, practising and improving my lousy skills..
Trying to aim and achieve something..
Finding where's my weak area..
Trying to airshoot and aim for 3-pointer shots,
Those were my happiest days..
Although there were deadlines to meet,
Dreadiest rjs and evaluation to be completed,
But compared to working,
Those were in fact nothing at all..
Stress is not a suitable word to describe it.
Now as a temp staff, I feel that there's nothing to achieve at all,
Work is just a boring routine I have to suffer to avoid naggings and to earn my keep..
Nothing to look forward to..
Nothing to accomplish,
No sense of satisfaction besides that I had earned one more day of work.
Leaning on the optimistic side,
It is an eye opener..
I'm exposed to different types of people..
The self-centered, "It's your problem, don't ask me" kind, the scornfuls, backstabbers, double-headed snake, the helpful, kind, the generous.
Be it good or bad, its an incredible experience that $$ can't buy.
I miss rp life..

New Creation Church - I See Grace

2008-03-25T22:13:00.006+08:00

Jesus, my help
I call on Your name
I cast my cares on You
Jesus, my hope
My tower of strength
My faith is found in You.

I see You pierced,
Wounded for me
When I look to the cross
I see..

I see Grace
Sealed by Your Sacrifice
I see love reaching for me
Precious blood,
Washes and Sanctifies
Healing flows
Setting me free
I see Grace

Bearer of sin
Afflicted and tried
You paid redemption's price
Bearing my curse
You set me on high,
Your death has brought me life

I see You pierced
Wounded for me,
When I look to the cross
I see..

I see grace,
Sealed by Your Sacrifice
I see love reaching for me.
Precious blood
Washes and Sanctifies
Healing flows
Setting me free
I see Grace

I see You pierced
Wounded for me
When I look to the cross,
I see..
I see You pierced
Wounded for me
When I look to the cross,
I see..

I see Grace
Sealed by Your Sacrifice
I see love reaching for me.
Precious blood,
Washes and Sanctifies
Healing flows..
Setting me free
I see Grace

I see Grace.

I feel very tired and queasy.
I feel like hiding to a corner..
I wanna sleep my entire day..
Not to wake up .. To find me lost in the routine again.

Corrinne May - If You Didn't Love Me

2008-03-22T22:04:00.005+08:00

If every drop of water disappeared from the land
And every drop of ocean suddenly turned to sand
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me

What if I woke up and couldn't hear a sound
And all that I could see was darkness all around
That would still be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me

If I could have the world and all that money could buy
And I could travel far beyond the moon and the sky
If they gave me golden wings,
Well I still couldn't fly
Without you, nothing would matter

You and I walk beside each other day after day
But there's so much inside me, I never get to say
My life would be so empty
With nothing left to feel
If you didn't love me
If you didn't love me

I'm living with a grenade everyday

2008-03-21T23:06:00.005+08:00

Criticism,
Drunkedness,
Injuries,
Wounds,
Break-up,
Unable to run..
Jump
Badminton,
Swim,
Gym,
Bball..
I can't do these till my injuries heal..
But when will it heal?
1 day?
2 weeks?
3 months?
4 years?
or never?
This time my injuries don't look optimistic..
My spine is feeling the tinge..
It hurts like crap.
I feel like crying..
I'm tired..
I'm no good..
I've lost my passion..
The spark of my life.

Olivious..

2008-03-19T23:30:00.011+08:00

Scars..
A painful reminder not to repeat the same mistake..
The inflicting pain..
Yet, it's the same mistake I'm repeating.
When will I ever learn to listen?
Some things are just meant to past..
Not meant to have..
But why am I committing myself in a never-ending maze again?
The misery that never vanishes..
Never changes..
The oblivious let-go that I would never obey.
The lukewarm-ness..
The stubborness and deceit.
That one day everything will change for the better..
But will it really get better?

Corrinne May - Scars (Stronger for Life)

2008-03-18T23:29:00.013+08:00

I just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don’t want to hear them say
“You’re no good at this”

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Swimming in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I’m meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Cut away
All within me
That won’t bear fruit
Cut away
All within me
Cut away
All within me
That won’t bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger
Scars make us stronger for life

Understanding.

2008-03-15T23:46:00.005+08:00

The moon looks beautiful today.
Though it isn't full but it appears to be bright and energetic.
At times like this, I can't help but to ponder..
About my journey in this world so far..
The events that have happened..
The present..
My surroundings..
The people around me..
Relationships..
Why is it still stagnant?
When I look back..
It is frustrating that after 5 months..
It still feels like the beginning..
His thinking..
Feels like a stranger that I don't exactly know actually.
Though at times I do smile at the moments I really enjoyed with him.
But does safeguarding your personally secrets still important in a r/s?
I don't mean friend's secrets..
But rather own secrets..
The key to your soul.
No one's at fault..
But what do I know?
How to deeply understand?
When everything's only on the surface.
It's like a frozen river with an ice surface..
A wrong step and one could get drown.
Like wise, a r/s will break when misunderstandings and misconceptions draws in the picture.
Personally, a solid r/s derives from a deep understanding of each other.
Good communication.
Trust.
Understanding each other's thoughts.
Understanding each other's emotions.
Understanding each other's behavoir.
But what have I understand?
I really want to understand him..
Not to neglect him..
But how to?
When the reply is always a dead end answer and ends with a silence.
It is annoyingly tired to ask and not get an elaborated answer everytime.
It is always either "I don't know how to say leh" or "No use to say all this already".
How to understand when I am not God that reads minds?
Teach me.

You are the Alpha and Omega.. nothing beats You.

2008-03-09T23:16:00.005+08:00

I've started working at NTUC Income..
So far, the work's manageable.
Compared to the rest of my previous jobs,
this admin job is the best.
Time flies quite fast here..
Salary is reasonable.
But I'm only employed for 2-3 mnths.
The HR person told me its for 3 mnths..
But the letter stated only 2..
That left me confused.

After May I've to look for a job again..
That I can work even after I enter SIM.
I've realised that money makes the world go round..
You can fulfill your materialistic 'wants' as long as there's $$..
However, $$ is still not everything..
It can't buy friendship ties and harmony.
Peace and bountiful joy also cant be purchased..
At the end of the day,
$$ is just an incentive that the Lord had blessed me with.
He is still the best.
The Lord of my life.

:D

Avril Lavigne - Too Much to Ask?

2008-03-04T03:24:00.003+08:00

It's the first time
I've ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
It's funny when you think it's gonna work out
'Til ya chose weed over me, you're so lame

I thought you were cool until the point
Up until the point you didn't call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out you're all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story

Every time I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You can't
You're too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm askin for?

I thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning
'Cause I'm not about, to look at your face again

Can't you see that you're lying to yourself?
You can't see the world through a mirror....
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

But every time I try to make you smile
You always go on feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh
You’d stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is that too much that I'm askin for?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Can't find where I am
Lying here
Alone in fear
Afraid of the dark
no one to claim
Alone again

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Can't you see that you're lying to yourself?
You can't see the world through a mirror...
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

But every time I try to make you smile
You always go on feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh
You can't
You're too tough
You think you're loveless
It was too much that I asked him for.

Is it too much to ask for?

Feelings..

2008-03-01T00:00:00.007+08:00

Everything's blizzardly cold.

I feel very sad..
I feel very lost.
I feel like screaming my lungs out..
I feel like venting out my frustrations.
I feel that my heart is soaked with acid..
I feel very wrenched.
I feel despondent.
I feel that I'm gonna lose my mind soon.
I feel like beating something.
I feel worried.
I feel that everything's coming to an end.

I don't feel good.
I don't feel like talking.
I don't feel like a good gf..
I don't feel sane anymore.

That's my last resort.

2008-02-26T23:51:00.005+08:00

Why do I feel that I'm beginning to lose you?
I do not wish for that to happen.
No, not at all.

sucks.

2008-02-26T00:38:00.005+08:00

I don't like being at home..
mum's constantly scolding me..
Even if it's not my fault.
Sometimes, I admire her ability of twisting the truth.
All the time, I wish she won't pick on me.
Why is it so difficult?
To feel a sense of belonging.
I don't feel loved at all..
If santa claus do exist,
I hope that he could give me my christmas wish..
I do not hope much..
Only a place of belonging in this world..
The place I called "home".

A person's heart can be deceitful.
A lie.
What's the significance of having relatives..
When it's all a facade.
Those smiles..
Those laughter..
Those eat-togethers..
Reality is cruel.
Grandma's house is a place I won't unnecessarily step into anymore.
I just want to lead my life peacefully..
Is it too much to ask for?

Life that we knew.. have to change.

2008-02-21T23:42:00.005+08:00

Singapore has officially won the bid for the youth olympics.
Yay!

I've finally graduated from RP.
Nothing special..

Applied for SIM alr..
No news yet..
Except their mail regarding my epayment..
False Alarm..
kns.

Been slacking..
Been pondering much..
Some things won't change..
No matter how much I kick a big fuss..
It'll just strained relationships and tightens my circle of friends.
Some things I've to let go..
Some things I have to keep my cool.. feign ignorance
But how long can I contain?
Ignorance is bliss.
Do you believe in that??
I do.

我要快乐

2008-02-10T03:25:00.000+08:00

CNY..
Birthdays..
Festivals..
Celebrations..

Had lost their meaning.

Weirdness.

2008-02-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

weird..

weird..

weird.

wondering..

2008-02-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

How do you define good friends?
Someone that has the same interest as you yet able to hurt you real deep
Or those that you can confide in yet dun give a hoot when they hurt you?

I feel like giving up.
Life.

It's over..

2008-01-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

Finally, FYP is over..
I feel glad and relieved.
However, I feel that something's missing.
Maybe my FYP team mates have been part of my life for the past 1 year..
The ups and downs,
The unhappiness and laughter..
The rollar-coaster feelings..
I'll missed their company, chat, fun, jokes, nonsence and laughter.
This fyp team is the best project team I had throughout my whole life.
Guys, well done!!
:D

Sometimes when I walk out of the door.

2008-01-27T02:46:00.000+08:00

Some say promises are meant to be broken,
Some say rules are meant to be bent,
But if promises are meant to be broken,
And rules are meant to be bent,
Then why promise in the first place?
Is it some trap I walked into or is history repeating itself again?
I hate history especially when it repeats.
Have it ever occurred the purpose behind a promise?
When a promise means alot.
To me, a promise determines how reliable you are to me.
And in turn certains the trust I have in you.
Trust.
Promise.
Does it rly exist?
Now I really wonder.

Crap.

2008-01-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

I need motivation.
30th January 2008..
Please come and go as fast as the wind..

罗志祥 - 我不会唱歌

2008-01-02T11:11:00.000+08:00

这首为你点播的歌
如果我先哭了
怎么唱到最后
是的感情不是K歌
音阶一字不漏
不见得感动

我也懂
拿麦的手不能颤抖
曾握着就能感受你比我难过
谁写的歌词那么适合放手
我怎能舍不得

我努力唱完主歌
我忘了走音没有
我到底哭什么
哭什么
明明搞笑的
我努力唱好朋友
我忘了是谁哭了
就算你不记得
这首歌唱完的是我

这首为你点播的歌
如果我先哭了
怎么唱到最后
是的感情不是K歌
音阶一字不漏不见得感动
我也懂拿麦的手不能颤抖
曾握着就能感受你比我难过
谁写的歌词那么适合放手
我怎能舍不得

我努力唱完主歌
我忘了走音没有
我到底哭什么哭什么
明明搞笑的
我努力唱好朋友
我忘了是谁哭了
就算你不记得
这首歌唱完的是我

我努力唱完这歌
我忘了破音没有
你心里触动的
下一首已经不是我
我努力唱到嘶吼我不怕剩我一个
只要你能记得这首歌给我最爱的

My trip to Macau and HK - Part 3

2007-12-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

Day 4 - Visit to Disneyland

Disneyland is truly a wonderful place. It feels like fantasy. How I wish I won't need to step out to the realistic world..a world which I can't comprehend. Finally, I get to see mickey. To me, mickey is the nicest creation in this world. While heading to take the MTR ( HK's train) to Disneyland, my brother caught sight of this..

Olympics 2008 countdown!!

The journey to Disneyland was very far from my aunt's house.. as though travelling from Tampines to Jurong. To my astonishment, the train was decorated with lots of effort put in..very beautiful..

Train with mickey-head shape windows :D

Chips and Dale in the train..

Just like chips and dale, pluto had the same fate..

My other fantasy :)

yay!! Entrance card to disneyland..

It's time to go in.. tickets, please!!

Disneyland had been divided into parts.. Adventureland, Fantasyland and Tomorrowland. Out of these 3 lands, tomorrowland is the most exciting.. it's just like a theme park where I could not forget their space mountain ride.. A dark rollar coaster ride. Thrilling, sudden shots of adrenaline, Shiok!

First place we went.. Adventureland.. where Tarzan and Lion King stays..

ROAR!! Here comes Simba.. The Lion King..

One of Disney's stage shows.. "The Festival of the Lion King"

After the Lion King stage show, we proceeded Tarzan's Treehouse.. we had to wait for 30mins to get on the raft to bring us to his house.. Reminds me of Sentosa's hut.

On the raft to Tarzan's treehouse..

Tarzan's treehouse..

How Karla saved Tarzan when he was young

The boy Karla saved, grew up to be a strong man, named Tarzan.

Tarzan's past time.

Soon, we took the raft back to shore where we headed for our next stop, Fantasyland. As it's name suggest, the rides and places in there were much more of a fantasy.. just like merry-go-round and mickey 4D shows. The mickey 4D show was an unforgettable and memorable experience.. imagine a show with Aladin and princess with their magic carpet flying at an arm's lenght away from you, water droplets spraying on you when donald duck topples a drink and the smell of sweet perfume. Amazing.

Outside Fantasyland..

On our way to mickey's 4D show..

Waiting to enter Mickey's 4D show..

Merry-go-round..

After the merry-go-round, we shopped while waiting for the "Disney's Let It Snow Christmas Parade" to commence at 6.30pm.. this parade shows the various types of Disney characters like mickey and friends, snow white and the 7 dwalves, toy story, Under the sea and Alice in Wonderland.

Let the parade start!

Grand appearance.. Big Mickey !!

Chips and Dale Factory

Rapzel, Cinderella and Snow White

Not forgetting the 7 dwalves..

Under the Sea..

Alice in Wonderland

Toy Story..

Toy Story soldiers..

Mickey and friends.

We proceded to Tomorrowland after the parade.. This place is where we created lots of fun and laughter.

A land of tomorrows.

Off to space..

Orbitron ride..

Ready to set off for space mountain..

Space mountain ride.. A MUST take ride at Disneyland!!

As there was a fireworks at the castle at 8pm, we proceeded to grab some chicken wings and fries to munch while heading for the fireworks.. the fireworks was very pretty.. at a juncture, it reminded me of guang liang's yan huo song.. What's special about this fireworks from others is that, firstly, it was situated at the castle.. imagine castle with fireworks.. and secondly, on the castle wall, it was showing mickey and friends cartoon show. Although pictures tell a thousand words, it still feels better if you're there to experience it. Extremely creative, special and unique. Totally awesome.

Before the fireworks..

Fireworks started..

My trip to Macau and HK - Part 2

2007-12-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

hmm..

I shall continue blogging about my trip.

Day 3 - Pack off to Hong Kong

On day 3 of my trip, we went to this Portugese bakery in the morning. Their speciality is Portugese egg tart. It was extremely delicious unlike the ones in Singapore. After tasting their egg tart, to my amazement, my uncle told us to proceed to the restaurant which was under the same bakery for my 'real' breakfast. I ordered salmon sandwich with mocha. Their salmon was very fresh. How I miss their egg tart....

After breakfast, the whole family went back to the hotel and packed our luggage. While packing, we took a few pictures for remembrance.

On my way back to the hotel..

Comfy beds :)

Aww.. nice suite.

Toilet.. haha.

Last view of The Venetian hotel before departure

So, after departing from the hotel, we headed for the superjet ferry. It was far beautiful that I expected.. nicer than those army guys take to Tekong.

A journey to a fun place..

When we embarked to our destination, Hong Kong, we took a cab to my aunty's house. I realised that the house I lived in Singapore is a priviledge in HK. Thank God for my house! =)

As the sun was about to fall, my uncle who lives in HK droved us to a cafe he frequently patronised. It was the first time I tasted such tasty mutton, sweet and sour pork, soup. I couldn't resist their bottled cream soda too. It was fantastic compared to the canned ones. HK's soup is indeed the best. It was also then that I realised we can easily poke the middle of the corn.. haha.

Bro and his micheivous expression. lol.

Waiting for our turn..

Finally, its our turn to eat =)

Poke the corn!!

As we had our heavy fill, my uncle suggested visiting Victoria Peak, a place where the entire Hong Kong is at our gaze and to "relax" our tummies. Throughout my entire trip, that place left a deep impression on me due to its coldness.. a chill that could breeze through your bones. A breeze that never ceases. It was super duper cold..

Brr...brr...brr...

That's the end of day 3..

More updates soon I hope.

My trip to Macau and HK - Part 1

2007-12-25T15:56:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I last updated..
Recently, I just came back from Hong Kong and Macau,
Tasted lots of nice food..
There are goose, suckling pig, wan ton mee, pork chop bun, portugese food, portugese egg tarts, sharks fin, different types of Dim Sum, Salmon sandwich (yum yum), drank their nai cha (tea with milk) and yin yong ( tea with coffee)

The nai cha at Macau sucks..
No matter how many spoonfuls (5x) my cousins and I put in, the tea tasted bland and bitter..
However, Hk's nai cha tasted much more better..
Can really taste the blend of tea with milk..
But it still isn't sweet as expected..
Perhaps I'm used to Singapore's Teh..
I've realised that the Nai cha in Singapore's Hk cafe..
Doesn't have the authentic taste of HK's nai cha..
lol.

First day - Checked into The Venetian Hotel (Macau)

This hotel is very spectacular..
It has an ambience of Venice..
Totally fascinating..

Hotel's Lobby

Nice Portrait

Cousins and I at the grand hotel

After admiring the beautiful hotel,
We proceeded to this famous Portugese Restaurant, Fenandos, for dinner..
The potatoes and tomatoes are delicious, sweet and big..
Not forgetting their wine and crab too..
Bagus!

The whole family :D

Day 2 - Sight-seeing at Macau

After breakfast, my cousins, brother and I happened to chance upon this photo shop..
It's advertisement for their shop was hilarious..

Spot the similarities.. lol.

After that, my uncle brought us to see the tourist attraction of Macau which includes the ruins of St. Paul's church and a Catholic church. The first look of St. Paul's church reminded me of the one at Malacca.

Cousin and her 'M' for Macau sign..haha.

Behind the catholic church with bro

Shopping at Warner. Bros

Long queue at the Pork Chop Bun stall

Grand Canal Gondola Ride

Tall guy at The Venetian Hotel

That's the end of day 2 of my stay in Macau..
More updates soon..
Anyway, today's christmas..
The birth of Christ..
A Merry Christmas to all!!
:D

..

2007-12-03T10:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the Standard Chartered Marathon.
Went to help out which involves in taking and giving the baggage..
sounds like an easy job ??
It wasn't as simple as I thought it would be..
Because lethagy will seep in..
Causing you to be both tired and sleepy
So stoning was my consolation.
Thus, Sunday was a happening day for me.

Change my heart oh God.

2007-11-30T01:15:00.001+08:00

Change my heart oh God,
make it ever true.
Change my heart oh God,
may I be like You.

You are the potter,
I am the clay,
mold me and make me,
this is what I pray.

.

2007-11-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

It's
Just
A
Matter
Of
Time.

Wrong decision leads to dire consequences

2007-11-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

Demotivated.
I'm dumb.
I shouldn't have gone school on Thurs.
:(

Swimming: For Fitness.

2007-11-25T16:25:00.001+08:00

Swimming can be both therapeutic and prophylactic, helping people overcome and even prevent all sorts of illness and disabilities. Part of the reason for this is that water buoyancy makes it a non-impact form of exercise, removing the stress placed on the joints and therefore opening it up to people with a wide range of conditions for whom land-based activities are problematic. It is also a sport that exercises a wide range of muscle groups, builds muscular strenght and endurance and develops self-confidence.

Duncan Newby, the national swimmer coach to Bermuda and an active swimmer himself, was diagnosed as having oesophagal cancer while still young. He was losing weight and could not swallow. Originally, he put his problems down to the fact that he was training hard for his first Master's competition. Following an endoscopy in January 1998, he was told he had cancer and had to be operated on immediately. He was given a 2% chance of survival but with the help of friends and family, he went to the most expensive cancer clinic in the world, the Memorial Sloane Kettering, New York.

The clinic told Duncan that the fact he had swimmer's lungs might give him a slim chance of survival. Throughout large courses of chemotheraphy and radiation, Duncan continued to swim. Just 3 weeks after the operation, he swam in a 1300m open water race! And a few weeks later, he swam in a 4km open water race. This was despite the fact that Duncan had lost his stomach, oesophagus and part of his diaphragm.

Duncan's cancer is now in remission and he feels he owes his life to his swimming. In the summer of 2000, he swam a 10km race in 2hrs and 55mins. He now plans to give talks in the UK about the wonders of swimming as a source of life extension and quality of life. This remarkable case of one man's determination to survive against the odds epitomises how swimming can help improve health even in the most serious cases.

Unspoken Indescribable Words.

2007-11-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

Staring into space and stoning was once my leisure.
Cos it feels that I'm in outerspace.
Free, easy and 'light'
But recently,
It isn't a pleasure to do it anymore.
It feels like hell,
Everytime I start stoning..
I will ponder about something.
I hate it..
I don't like to be emo..
Emo is evil.
Laughter is the best medicine.
But..
I've realised that..
Sometimes..
What I want..
Will not happen.
What I wish for..
It's my wishful thinking.
What I hoped for..
It's unreachable.
Some things are better left unsaid.
Ignorance is bliss.
Silence is golden.
But I wish that..
I just wish that..
zzz..

Sucks.

2007-11-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt that being sick is secondary..
compared to other matters.
I felt sick and tired.
Not literally.
Mentally.
I loathe this feeling.
The feeling of achiness..
Yet unable to vent it out.
God,
Please grant me the ability to cry.
It feels stuffy inside.
please.
I beg you.
:(

Dear,
don't feel bad about my sickness.
I voluntarily wanted to walk in that rain..
So, it's NOT your fault.
Anyway,
It's your prescence that warms me.
I will be fine in no time.
Love you.
:D

How?

2007-11-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

How?
How?
How?

I've seriously no idea..
Why..
How..
It's gone.
It's lost.
I have to search for it..
And find it.
But how to search for smth..
That isn't there all along...
Or was it there..
But it din dawned to me..
That it was there.. waiting.
All I know is that..
I need to sleep now.
Goodnight.

A blessed day :D

2007-11-10T19:06:00.000+08:00

hmm..
I've been thinking..
Is speaking one's mind that bad ???
After all that have happened,
I've realised that sometimes I should refrain from speaking my mind.
If all along I should,
Then, for the past 20 years of my life,
I've been living my life wrongly.
But I'm just being true to myself and people
I've rly no idea.
hai..
Don'tkno lar..
:(

Anyway,
Today I've enjoyed myself.
Went shopping with my mom at tm.
She woke me up early in the morning at 9.45am.
Yes lar..
9.45am is considered early to me..
Especially on a Saturday morning.
Thank goodness it was a fruitful trip.
Not because I've bought alot of things..
But rather I've learnt a valuable lesson.
I realised that it is more blessed to give than to receive.
I felt happy and fortunate when treating my mom to Ya Kun.
It's the joy that flows from inside.
It's indescribable.
:)
All the while, my mom has been a generous lady.
She scrimps on herself but spends lavishly on my siblings and I.
Today,
She bought for me Nike and Converse jackets, Nike tee and sports bra.
Wanted to buy me a ring..
I declined it lar..sadly.
For she has bought me far too many things already.
After shopping,
We went Crystal Jade to eat.
Indeed their dim sum is delicious.
I love their duck noodles alot.
It's noodles and duck made from heaven.
Seriously.
lolx.
:D

zzz...

2007-11-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

After today's sentosa,
My injury hurts..
It feels numb
I knew I shouldn't play vball and bball just now.
But I still did.
I sought my own pain.
This pain is self-deserved
I shall not complain anymore.

Why can't I get over it???
WHY ?!?!?!

林俊杰 - 原来

2007-11-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

街灯绊住我眼前下一步
拉长的影子嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

Hello, Mr holiday :)

2007-11-03T12:53:00.000+08:00

Holidays have arrived at my door step.
I will be busy during this holiday..
Mon: Swimming and shopping
Tues: Sentosa and dinner with E45E
Wed: FYP (maybe) and K box with E44B :D
Thurs: Swimming and shopping
Friday: Swimming and shopping
Saturday: Slacking @ Sentosa ( I think) LOL !
Sunday: Church and study

Once holiday ends,
There will be 3 UTs for me the following week.
Nutrition, Med Tech and Med Equipment.
Very zz..
I need to pull my socks..
Been slacking much.
Finally,
My parents are back.
Their encounter at China was fulfilling
They took alot of photos
The pandas came out cute
I'm glad they came back safe..
Everything's back to normal.
I can have home cook food for dinner again.
And breakfast on Saturday morning.
That's my contentment.
:D

I feel helpless now..
I can't find a solution to help my friend.
And I suck at comforting ple.
What should I do??
I hope you will be strong.
Remember,
I'm just a call away.

或许命运的签只让我们遇见

Detached

2007-11-01T01:08:00.000+08:00

Cold..
Tired..
Lethargy
Helpless..
Heart-Wrench..
Laughter..
Worried..
Relieve..
Doubts..
Hopeful..
Disappointment..
Stress.

These are my feelings for today.
Some things are difficult to express.
Difficult to pretend that I don't care.
Can't be bothered..
Isn't what I actually mean.
At times,
I want to be alone..
I don't want to affect others with my mood.
I want my friends to stay happy..
Some things I know I should detach myself from..
Some things I should not always rely on..
Some things I should refrain from.
Some things I should give freedom to..
Some things I should be more sensitive..
But it's difficult.
Very hard.
Extremely hard.
I will.
I must.
Do it.

It's 3am
I'm sleepy and lethargic..
But I've yet to do the laundry..
It's taxing..
But what can I do..
I still have to do it.
No one to help me..
It's alright..
I'll still do it.
Dad,
Please come back soon.
I miss you like hell.
yes,
It feels like hell now.

Lord,
help me, I pray..
I need your guidance and aid.
Please guide me to Your path.
A path that is righteous.
A path that I won't regret in future.
A path that is pleasing in Your eyes.
Only You alone understands me.
My thoughts, My dilemna, My everything
Only You alone knows what is right and true
When I'm blinded..
With You,
I can see..
For I know I can always rely on You.
For You've already plan my road ahead.
So please Lord,
I'm praying that You'll mend my broken heart.
A wound that only You can heal.
For only You know how much it hurts.
Teach me how to forgive ple who add salt to the infected area.
To me, it's unpardonable
But to You, it seeks forgiveness
Please heal me with Your divine touch.
Thank you, Father
Amen~

A release.

2007-10-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

Finally~
Everything's falling into place properly.
It's high time to get over it.
Life still goes on..
With or without.
Maybe I'll live in regrets.
Maybe I wish time can turn back.
But at least guilt din pricked me.
I'm delighted with that decision.
Let's carry on with our lives..

Wan Ping,
Thanks for your help and advises.
You are rly one good buddy!
It's difficult to find a friend like you.
I'm extremely glad I know you.
I'll be as cheerful as last time.
You'll find me back soon.
Very soon.
Don't worry ok?
:D

2007-10-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.

才发现笑着哭最痛

I'm heartless.

2007-10-27T11:42:00.000+08:00

Have you ever hope that you have 2 bodies?
So that you won't get caught in the middle..
Between your heart and morale.
I wish last night,
There was another me.
One that could be at the airport to accompany my cousin..
And the other one to be with you.
But let's hop back to reality,
There's only one of me..
I'm sorry..
I chose to stay with my cousin in the end.
She's my cousin afterall..
How can I "pang seh" her?
Moreover, I've promised to always accompany her.
You know,
I know,
Keeping a promise..
It's our principle and priority..
So, how can I break mine?
What's more to my own family.
Sorry..
I can't bare to leave her in the lurch.
I'm rly sorry..
Time wasn't by our side.
I left you waiting there.
Treat it that I'm cold and heartless.

Backstreet Boys - Incomplete

2007-10-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

Empty spaces
Fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you
Within me
I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I've tried to go on like i never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

Voices
Tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on,
But I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

A fresh new start.

2007-10-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

I don't want to live my life in despondent anymore.
All the thoughts.
All the whys..
All the maybes..
All the perhaps.
All the frustrations.
Enough is enough.
I just want to spend my last few months in RP with them peacefully.
As I really enjoy their company.
But recently all that have happened..
Making them worried for me.
I don't wish for history to repeat itself.
Cos I know the feeling sucks.
Once is enough.
More than enough
I'm really sorry.
I'll revert back to my old self soon.
One that was strong.
One that was happy-go-lucky.
One that loves to laugh.
One that won't bother when "arrows attack me"
One that won't make friends worried.
One that won't let anything affect my mood during trngs.
One that would forgive and forget.
One that could control my temper and emotions.
Tomorrow will be a brand new day.
I promise.
:D

Go Forward!

2007-10-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

Strive and not to Yield.
Keep on working hard.
You'll reap your hardwork in future.
Jiayou!
:D

Unintended

2007-10-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

You could be my unintended,
Choice to live my life extended,
You could be the one I'll always love.
You could be the one who listens,
To my deepest inquisitions,
You could be the one I'll always love.

I'll be there as soon as I can,
But I'm busy mending broken,
Pieces of the life I had before.

First there was the one who challenged,
All my dreams and all my balance,
She could never be as good as you.

You could be my unintended,
Choice to live my life extended,
You should be the one I'll always love.

I'll be there as soon as I can,
But I'm busy mending broken,
Pieces of the life I had before.

I'll be there as soon as I can,
But I'm busy mending broken,
Pieces of the life I had before.
Before you.

How I wish..

2007-10-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

I wanna run to a faraway place.
A place that no one can find me.
A place that I can find comfort and genuine feelings.
A place where I won't have to frequently reflect on myself at the end of the day
How I wish that all the ruin relationships,
The fakes
The backstabs.
The incomprehension
Will just fade away.
Ignoring me for good.
I'm seriously sick and tired of all these people.
It's a game that I loathe playing.
What's so nice in backstabbing people?
Just tell me?!
Does it please you to see people get angry and disgusted?
Is it really that fun?
Just tell me ?!!
If it is fun and you're conscience isn't pricking you,
Just tell me,
Labelling with 10 good reasons!
Perhaps no one understands my feelings besides myself.
Can I have a lone island for my own?

Dark Tuesday.

2007-10-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

Now the sky is rainy, gloomy and grey
It seemed to depict my current feeling.
Upset, despondent, rage and a mixture of feelings.
Today's not my day.
On my way home,
It continued to pour heavily
The bus was freezing cold
I stared at the countless droplets landed on the window.
I couldn't cease dazing..
Because it was beautiful.
For once today, I felt peaceful and calm.
Soon, I fell asleep.
It was one of the nicest bus sleeps I ever had.
Out of this world.
Have you ever experienced a bad grade you don't deserve?
I've been asked how can I feel better
Seriously, I don't have the answer myself.
Experts say that crying helps
But I can't cry.
So what else can I do to make myself feel better?
Drink?
Smoke?
Dance?
Pub?
I'll stick to gym.

sucks!

2007-10-13T12:24:00.000+08:00

My works are always not unrecognise.
Even when I tried my best to find research for it.
But it was "deem unfit" for the ppt.
Not only was it "unfit",
I felt invisible and non-existant
I wasn't told beforehand that my slide wasn't in the ppt
So I've left with nothing to present confidently.
Do you know how disappointing and betrayed i felt?
I guess you won't understand
Because you haven had a taste of what acid is like.
It stings and sourfies till you remember every single bit of it.
No matter how hard I try..
I just can't forget what had happened.
It lives vividly in my mind.
Fucking hate it.
I want every saddening event to vanish.
But it just can't disappear.
Why?!

!!!

2007-10-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

IT'S BETTER NOT TO APOLOGISE IF YOU DO IT INSINCERELY!

ZZZZ!

Creative Application.

2007-10-07T18:11:00.000+08:00

Recently, my dad's company gave him this. I name it the mouse pad cum calculator. I find it interesting and useful. This mousepad didn't come with the wireless mouse but it somehow blended with the mousepad, so I took it together. haha. Although the colour combination sucks, it is nice and convenient to use. Imagine during UT.. it can help your mouse to scroll smoothly to your destinated file and also, when you're stuck with some irritating Maths calculation and desperately in need of a calculator, it is just right infront of you..waiting for you to press it. Changi Airport is really rich to give out such a fine dual present to not only their CAAS staff but everyone working in Changi Airport. Indeed a top airport in the world :D

It leads to time.

2007-10-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, Wan Ping gave me an exotic tomato muffin she had bought at Esplanade on Thursday after watching her concert. Sorry for not taking a picture of it before eating. I had the intention to but I guess all those Cardiac research like the difference between a Sudden Cardiac Arrest and a heart attack and the equipments in dealing with SCA had made me overlook it. So, let me describe it.. let's imagine a muffin with 3 layers of twirled-orange whip cream, sprinkled with colourful bits plus a small-round tomato added on top of the whip cream. It was pretty but I had to eat it to prevent it from turning moudly. It was delicious. Thanks Wan Ping! :D

This week was rather surprising yet doubtful. It is a wonder how people can end their dispute by communication..via msn. On the other hand, it leaves me the doubt to how sincere that person is. Both negative and postive thoughts are floating in my brain. The more it floats, the more confuse I get. Perhaps time and observation is the only key to unlock this mystery. Everything, time will tell.

Sometimes, I really wish to wash my hands off this and lead my journey of escapement. However, I know that escaping isn't the solution to problems and the only way is to unroot it but it's a question mark in how to unroot it. Why not you tell me what's a suitable solution in solving it? I'm really sick and tired of everything. The decision making, having to always read your mind, your unhappiness & distrust and the feeling of being left hanging on the fence. JUST TELL ME !!

how ?

2007-10-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

PP is finally over..
With today's presentation as the last lap of my pp,
At last I can hieve a sigh of relief.
It is still a doubt whether I will pass my pp..
However, the comments are out already
So here are the comments..

Supervisor:
This student has thoroughly analysed the future prospect of electronic industry in Singapore, including strength, challenges etc. She also provide her own insights in this topic.

Assessor 1:
Information was well researched. Ability to analyse to a certain depth with some new insights.

Assessor 2:
Read from poster most of the time during presentation but do had some personal insight to questions asked. Good analysis done.

Damn!
I've tried my best not to rely on my poster during my presentation.
However, I still had the "read from poster most of the time during presentation" comment.
Disappointed.
But no matter what,
I still did my best.
And am glad about my performance and the hard work put in.
Thanks George for assisting in the designing of my poster!

Played bball after fyp and pp presentation.
It was quite a good match.
But I did not deliver my full potential.
Because my brain kept reminding me it's just a game..
and I cannot afford to have anymore injuries.
However,
I've hurt myself once again.
I wonder how because in my context,
I've already played a slow game.
I'm feeling so useless..
I can't do any running or exercise tmr and perhaps friday.
It's just like a bird with wings stuck in the cage.
With the ability to fly but unable to do so.
:c

Amazing Grace

2007-10-02T14:52:00.000+08:00

An assuring song that will comfort me whenever I'm feeling despondent and disconsolate.
So here are the lyrics..

Amazing Grace!
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found
Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas Grace that taught my heart to fear,
And Grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils, and snares
I have already come.
'Tis Grace hath brought me safe thus far
And Grace will lead me home.

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we'd first begun.

So, what is it?

2007-09-29T17:40:00.000+08:00

On friday, the day did not begin on the right note. Reached school early at 7.58am tho lessons officially commence at 8.45am. Since I was feeling tired due to the only 4 hours of rest , I decided to sleep awhile before concentrating for my lessons. When I was entering my sleep, one of my classmates just had to enter the classroom with a big bang. I was fucking annoyed and almost reprimanded him but i refrained from doing so. However, the frustration was still lingering and it seemed to build up within me as he can't cease blabbering. In order not to lay my fist on him, I reminded myself to relax and went to the toilet to vent my frustrations. When I went back to class, I was feeling better but I guess my fist became the victim. Lesson was theorized and it was my cup of tea. To summarize my learning, it's about lung testing and the different equipments used. Tried my school's gym equipment for the calf and other parts. It was pretty interesting as how those individual equipments can help strenghten different parts of the body. Maybe, I'll consider switching from public to school gym as it is free anyway. As I was sadly off form, we played bball for awhile and then headed home.

Yesterday night, I had a terrible stomachache. I guess it's the effect of my allergic to papaya. As usual, I did not eat any medicine including the pill George gave me since dunno when because I've a disgust for medicines of any form except syrup. Anyway, it's been digested and I'm feeling well already.

I have just finished my Professional Profiling (PP) poster and the last step of it is my presentation due on 3rd Oct, Wednesday. Although it's 4 days to the end of my PP, I am yet to be mentally ready. As RP's teaching relies mainly on PBL which meant that students have to present as a group daily to demonstrate their understanding, it's so easy to rely on your team mates to answer the questions posted. Hence, I am so used to that and wondering what type of questions will the panel of judges ask me as it will be an individual presentation. Perhaps, I should stop worrying as it can't aid my problems at all. When the time comes, I'll learn how to cope and overcome it.

Just some thoughts..
How do you actually define hypocrisy?
Is it simply a form of insincere talk, for instance mingling with that person and then speaking ill of him the next minute.
But..
What happens when some moral teachings come to task.
So, is it still hypocrisy at fault?

what would happen?

2007-09-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

Today I had an unforgettable breakfast.
Vegetable (Cabbage + Spinach + Potato + lots of tomatoes+ Curry) prata
It was a special order.
Thanks to George and Wan Ping.
Frankly Speaking,
It was difficult to swollow.
So, I wasn't angry or pissed off when I din reply you, George.
I was simply concentrating in swollowing it
I had to finish eating because it was their treat.
And I din eat lunch cos the taste was still lingering in my taste buds.
Aiya..
I had my Ice Blended Mocha also ma.
lol.
During lunch,
We did stunt on Michelle.
Bought a tuna sandwich and plain waffle.
Scrap off the tuna and spread it on the plain waffle.
Thus, it became..
Tuna Waffle Sandwich and tuna sandwich w/o tuna.
Another weird combination of foods.
After which I bought her 1 litre of "No sugar Added" orange juice with a thin straw and 2 cups.
hahaha.
It was hilarious.
After school,
Went KFC with Hsi Yin and her friends.
That somehow became my dinner
because I was so tired that once I sat on "The Rock"'s comfy chair,
I fell alseep.

Just a thought..
What would happen if I would just vanish from this earth?
Would my friends miss me or will it be just another "oh, she's gone".
Damn..
At the time like this..
Emo-ness should just be locked up somewhere
It better not come near me..
Or else..
Why can't I sleep?

蔡旻佑 - 我想要说

2007-09-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

看着右手　被撕裂的伤口

爱好像曾经停留

而我左手　按下号码之后

那酋属于我的歌不再播送

默写你的爱过　

坦承自己脆弱

对白怎么说　表情才不难过

我想要说　

如果没有了你　

我该如何往下走

那一秒钟　

有没有发现我　

倔强里的问候

怎么劝我放手　

在这一切之后

整夜的风　冷得我手颤抖

你在温暖的那头

熟悉路口　再一次的路过

等在那角落　的人已不是我
默写你的爱过　

坦承自己脆弱

对白怎么说　表情才不难过

我想要说　

Ho-Woo

如果没有了你　

我该如何往下走

那一秒钟　

有没有发现我倔强里的问候

怎么劝我放手　

在这一切之后

Ho-Oh-WooHo~

我想要说　

如果没有了你　

我该如何往下走

那一秒钟　

有没有发现我倔强里的问候

怎么劝我放手　

在这一切之后

怎么劝我放手　

在这一切

:D

2007-09-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

I've alot of questions floating in my brain.
Is it ethical ?
Is it right or wrong to do so
Or there's nth right or wrong.
I've tried weighing the consequences..
But it seems futile.
I'm still left hanging on the fence.

Nevermind about that..
What matters is that today,
We went to celebrate Wan Ping's birthday.
I really enjoyed myself
From the baking of cake,
To buying of big elmo balloon,
Designing of birthday card.
And lastly, celebrating at Marche.
Whenever there's E44B cliques,
There'll be fun and laughter.
I'm super beat now.
In need of sleep
Goodnight!
:D

kns! zz

2007-09-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

Disappointed.
Hugely disappointed.
How I wish that this semester will be over in a blink of an eye..
As if tmr's the last day.
But it's all my wishful thinking on my part.
As I've yet to present my PP,
Complete my CE points.
And lastly, succuessfully finish my FYP.
I can't put in words what's troubling me now.
All I know is that I need to vent it out.
Whatever that is happening..
It's super sickening!
History always repeat itself.
Still,
I have to face it with a smile.
I know it's damn hypocrite of me..
But I have no choice..
Begger's aren't choosers.
In order to survive in this...
:C

Calories Burnt

2007-09-18T11:46:00.000+08:00

As calculated, 130lbs = 59kg.

This is the summary of my first lesson of Sports and Exercise Nutrition.

So far, it's pretty interesting.

Fac said this module is the most difficult compared to other SHL (School of Health and Leisure) modules.

Since the start of this lesson, I've been counting my calaries intake

Skinless chicken rice is still fattening.

What more a packet of duck rice for dinner.

okay! I shall stop the conscious-eating thing.

All of a sudden

I miss PE lessons, swimming and bball.

Time for presentation..

zzzzz

A great buffet dinner

2007-09-14T12:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was FYP day..
My team mates were late as usual
So left Roy and I to do the FYP poster.
We managed to complete it within 1 hr.
The process was hilarious yet fulfilling.
haha.

After my FYP,
Went to meet Wan Ping, Hsi Yin and Michelle at Marina Square
For Yaki Buffet.
There were salmon slices!!
My favourite.
Besides that,
There were unagi sushi, prawn sushi, etc
Wan Ping ate a mountainful of bbq prawns.
As usual, Michelle did stunt.
She hid a bowl of bee hoon behind the tissue dispenser.
Poke the lady finger in pieces
So as not to get fine by the wastage of food.
$5.oo for 100g of wastage.
I presume that a day without stunt,
She'll feel uncomfortable.
lol.

Missing those days.

2007-09-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

E44B celebrated my birthday today.

They got me 5 gigantic balloons.

It was shockingly beautiful

Why shocking?

Because Hsi Yin and Avan told me to close my eyes.

While Wan Ping and Bennett brought the balloons into Cafe Cartel.

lol.

Dear, Wan Ping, Bennett, Hsi Yin, Marlene and Avan..

Thanks alot !!

Before meeting Wan Ping and the rest,

Hsi Yin and I went to watch Ratatouille and Evan Almighty.

Hmm..

It wasn't as nice as expected

I dozed off the beginning of Evan Almighty.

Yesterday was one of my dearest cousins's 21st birthday.

So, her sis and I went to do the decoration for her chalet.

Had some bruise on my fingers while trying to tie the balloons.

I din know tying balloons were that difficult.

Seems like these two days was "balloon-y" for me.

The birthday gal requested that I should accompany her to drink

Though Tiger wasn't my cup of beer

I drank 4 or 5 cans of it.

Now my stomach still feels bloated.

While drinking, we chatted about personal stuff as usual.

It felt very comforting

It was ages since we last had a heartfelt conversation.

Somehow, I missed ytd's conversion.

Class allocation came out today.

Damn sucks.

How to get through the 16 weeks.

No doubt it'll be quite fun

Dear, george and Marlene will be in the same class.

But..

hai..

There's FYP tmr.

How to survive through ?

Wonderful Birthday! :D

2007-09-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

First of all,
I would like to thank George for his kimchi and peach Barcadi.
Though it's hot and sour like nth else in this world.
Btw,
Cheer up my friend!
Play bball soon!
RAWR!

Went to meet my dad after his meeting in the afternoon.
My parents and I decided to eat laksa at century square.
Dad specially made his way down despite his busy schedule.
I felt super blessed and fortunate to be able to spend my birthday with them.
Thank God for them!
:)

We went to hunt for my hp.
I settled for E65.
Dad sponsored.
The sales person's service at TM's singtel was superb.
Should reward her GEMS or smth.
It's a nice phone.
I'm still exploring it.
lol.
During my kimchi meal at the pineapple playground,
I tested its WLAN.
It was alright.
An eye opener.
There's room for improvement though.
haha.

Anyway,
Thanks Hsi Yin, Wan Ping, Bennett, George, KY, Ling, Denise, Norbel, Julia, Marlene, Michelle, Tryphena, Xin Yan and those whom I missed out.
Thanks alot for your wishes and prezzies.
Thanks so much!!
You've made my 20th birthday wonderful!
:D

10 strange things about me.

2007-09-05T02:23:00.000+08:00

okay.. there's this peculiar game going on.

Instructions:
Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird habits or little known things about yourself.
People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird or little known facts about yourself as well as state this rules clearly.
At the end, you must choose 6 people to tag and list their names.

Since I've been tagged by bel, I shall comply to it.

(1) Every piece of outside clothes have to be ironed. It must be ironed with no crease seen (at the point of iron) and it must be to my satisfaction no matter how many times I ironed it. That is why I ironed my own stuff since secondary school.. and my family clothes during the eve of CNY.

(2) It's a habit of mine to shower everytime I leave the house, 2-3 times a day.. even when I leave house just for gym/swimming or I just bath when I woke up. Yes, it's indeed weird cos I will still end up stinky half an hour later. It's just.. like i said.. a habit. :D

(3) I love long alone bus rides especially at night because that's where I sort out my thinking and self-reflection. Of cos, it's the best time to sleep after a tired day due to the long duration to my destination.

(4) I've this perspective that tomatoes are good for injuries. Please don't ask where I instilled that mentality because it just came out of the blue.. even I don't have the answer.

(5) I loathe medicine and panadols because one pill of panadol will be in your kidney/liver for 5 years and I've experienced an overdose of panadols. It sucks tremendously. You may say I've a phobia for panadols but I think it doesn't aid in relieving my pain at all. So, I only consume strepsils for sorethroat and the rest, live it to my immune system to heal naturally.

(6) I hate driving.. except boats.. that's why I haven register for my BTT up till today. I'm still pondering whether to go for the sake of craft license. I wanna jet ski !

(7) With injury, I still do sports, eg bball. You might think that I'm stubborn or living in self-denial but it's simply the passion that keeps me going.

(8) I can't stand still and tend to fidget alot because I don't like waiting, especially for buses and transport. I find it a bore to kip still except in buses/trains. When I can't fidget, my next alternative would be stoning.

(9) Without coffee and fruits for a day, I'll feel that something is missing. So, it's exceptionally normal if you see me drinking coffee during dinner or meet up 9+pm at coffee bean.. just for a cup of coffee. I don't like milk in my traditional coffee at kopithiams but I don't mind drinking latte (espresso with milk) at coffee bean.

(10) Although I have mc donald's opposite my house, I love going to the airport in the morning just to have breakfast and I always go home feeling satisfied, contented and delighted.

* ling, wp, bennett, hsi yin, julia, eva. it's your turn ! :D *

lol.

2007-09-03T01:19:00.000+08:00

Today's a rather stressful yet pleasing day.
Arrived work with Jay Chou songs blasting to my ears.
I was filled with joy.
His celebrated and soothing songs such as
"An Jing", "Xin Yu", "Ye Qu", "eh eh ha hee" were played on air.
However, good things don't last long.
While I was enjoying my music,
it was time to promote the items again.
So, it was back to hearing the same old slogan which I've been BEARING for 4 days.
"Closing down sale, Left 4 sets at $199"
zzzz
Finally,
The Comex IT fair has ended.
It's the end of my torturous 9hrs+ stand a day!
:D

After work,
We went to meet Wan Ping for dinner/supper at HK cafe.
The companion and food was definitely great.
But the Turkey w/egg sandwich tasted weird.
I had lots of fun going out with them.
There was a scenario when we were booking cab.
So, Wan Ping wanted michelle to help her listen to the pre recorded pick up destination.
However,
She changed her mind immediately and said:
" I think don't want lar.. your english so lousy..I scared you don't understand"
Then, she handed the phone to Marlene.
We started laughing as wp's expression was super hilarious and realistic.
HAHAHA!

ps:
wp, thousand apologies for making you wait very long for us to finish work
sorry!!
And thanks alot for waiting!
:D

A day with two parts.

2007-09-02T01:29:00.000+08:00

There were two parts today.

Part 1:
Went to work at Suntec.
Stood for 9 hours+
Thus, my old knee injury started to hurt again.
It's sickening and infuriating.
Especially when I've been hit by the flu virus too.
I felt lethargic.
I miss bball.
zzz

Part 2:
After work,
We went to meet Wan Ping.
Our spirits were lifted and there were laughter filled the place.
Mysterically,
I was overwhelmed with energy when I was at Carl's Junoir with them.
It could be the overdose of tomatoes.
haha.
Seriously,
I love their company.
So, my day ended well.
:D

Decisions..

2007-08-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

I wanna take Power Pleasure Craft Driving Licence(PPCDL)
It's been my desire to jet ski.
I'm allowed to with sponsor
However,
I have to take my driving license first
It's a requirement by my dad.
Rly zzz!
I have yet to take my BTT
In the first place,
I din intend to take driving.
Cos there's always taxis around.
With cab companies blooming.
In my perspective,
It's better to generate money to taxi drivers.
It's their source of living,
Their ricebowl.
Rather than spending it on car taxes and what'snot.
Moreover,
I loathe the system of driving lessons and tests.
It's cumbersome and a pain in the neck.
But now,
I've to seriously reconsider.
No driving license = No pcl
So many things to consider.
:C
My brain feels jammed up,
Suffocated.
How nice if I can delete some stuff from my brain.
Or have an external port.
erm..
On the other hand,
Maybe not.
hai.

Those were the days..

2007-08-28T19:54:00.001+08:00

Woke up with an even worst flu spell.
Realised I lost my voice when my mom asked me smth.
lol.
Before I left house,
it started to rain cats and dogs.
Zzzzzzz
During the bus ride,
The rainpour was cosy and calm.
Weirdly,
It felt like it was soothing my sickness.
But when I alighted from the bus,
All the sickness came "ah-choo" back
Met Ling and Denise.
We reminisced about the past during sec school days.
Although I din speak much as I was "ah-chooing" away,
It was a great feeling.
I had a nice day.
Thanks guys!
:D

The Blessed Memories.

2007-08-24T00:53:00.000+08:00

My heart felt heavy while going to school today.
Because it's the last day of E44B.
I wished the end of this semester did't end so fast.
However,
Since there's a start, there will always be an end.
And I believe we will keep in touch with each other and
I'll treasure these friendships!

Class ended at noon.
So, proceeded to K Box and TCC at town with my class cliques.
Hope we could hang out again!
Gonna miss them alot!
Especially George, Wan Ping, Bennett, Avan, Hsi Yin, Marlene, Michelle and Eva.
So, I've decided to give a testimonial specially for each of them.
:D

George - Although he might look 'dao', deep inside him is not what he appears to be. He's warm, caring and thoughtful. Basically, he's always there when I needed company, help or facing with any problems. A selfless and rare friend that will put others before himself. I remember him waking up early in the morning just to have Mac breakfast with me at the airport, though it was a school holiday. Also, my bball companion and has a great passion for sports. Overall, he has given me a different and wider perspective of what a friend should be and I thank God for blessing me with such a great friend. Thanks George! All the best for your O lvl Eng! :D

Wan Ping - A bubbly and cheerful gal. Whenever I hang out with her, she doesn't fail to skip/ run to her destination. lol. She has the same interests as me, such as watersports and sun tanning. Glad to know her as a friend because she made me comprehend things that I shouldn't do. I still remember the time when I got pissed off and complained to her about the director who was the invigilator for my fyp. She told me it was his job to ask questions. Abruptly, I realised that it was wrong on my part to bitch about him and I should be more understanding regarding that matter. This is what friends are for.. one who will honestly correct my childish way of thinking.. regardless whether I like it or not. I really appreciate it alot! Thanks Wan Ping! :D

Bennett - Aka Homer. A potential student-faciliator in RP especially during Biomedical Instrumentation. lol. He loves to joke and laugh alot and also, has talent for games. Known for his stunts in class, such as 'locking' the class door and asking you for the imaginary key to open it in order to enter the class. hahaha. Basically, he's a fun and generous friend who always 'longbang' me back to east after hangouts. Thanks alot Bennett! :D

Avan - Aka Desmond aka ah-bang(muscular) body! After today's K box, I realised that he has the potential to be a singer. ok lar.. he don't look that bad lar. hahaha. He's a fun friend whom I never fail to 'suan' to the extend that I think he's tolerance level is quite high. A hard to sought friend from the crapping aspect. Basically, I meant that he's one who can crap along with you. lol. My bball companion too. Minimise on those whitening and face products lar! :p And faster re-scan those neoprints leh! hahaha. Anyway, truly nice having you in class! keep in touch! Let's play bball more often! :D

Hsi Yin - After an incident, I realised that she's a friend that won't betray you. It's difficult to get a secret from her, thus, making her trustworthy and worth keeping as a friend. A nice person to be with too. She doesn't like her veg and when she buys fish noodle soup from school, she'll give me her all vegs. haha. Anyway, thanks for the vegs and glad to know you! Let's 'ton' next time! :D

Marlene - Aka Lisa aka empress dowager. She has an imaginary bf, collin. If you find it familiar, yes, it's extracted from "Simpsons, the Movie". haha. Anyway, back to serious business. Known her for 2 semesters. She loves going to coffee bean too, just like me. Overall, she's a nice and gentle lady who never fails to be teased at by bennett whenever she has the desire to go to the loo. lol. Anyway, nice knowing you and thanks for the apple juice! :D

Michelle - My dear in class. She's always asking us to go for breaks. haha. Can't imagine the days without her next sem..cos she's partly the cream of the crop of laughter. Vividly, I can remember the days when Bennett hung her handphone and MP3 pouch on my class speakers and Wan Ping and I showered her body products from Body Shop. Not forgetting Jia Jia Liang Teh! lol. It was certainly hilarious. I love to tease her as her expression is priceless. hahaha. Anyway, sorry if I went overboard at times and thanks for everything! :D

Eva - Recently played bball with her. A fast learner. Known her since last semester and it's always pleasing fun having her in my team. She's quick to catch my wrong pronounciations, such as pass band (supposed to be band pass) which in return made it tremendously hilarious. I could remember the funny days when she heard DPC(Digital Processor Chip) as Digital Potato Chips. I bet she was hungry at that juncture! lolx. We laughed till our tummies hurt. Damn.. I miss those days! Anyway, may God bless you in all your endeavours and do keep in touch! Thank you for all the fun and laughter! Let's play more bball together!! :D

great day.

2007-08-21T00:53:00.000+08:00

Start off the day well by playing monopoly.
nonono..
It wasn't intentional.
It was part of my accounting module.
After today's problem,
I realised that monopoly is a significant game to yet-to-be accountants.
Although there was alot of transactions to be carried out after that,
I had fun which was the important part of the lesson.
Personally, I think that process is more important than results.
Don't mistaken me,
I don't mean that we shouldn't give a damn about results
But instead, give more emphasis and focus on the process.

Anyway, after lesson was the dreaded Instrumentation Test
Not to my surprise,
The UT was easy.
Alot of theory qns.
Which was my forte.
But I don't think it's easy to score.
Nvm, it's okay.
Whatever the result is,
I'm satisfied.

Proceeded to cine to watch "不能说的秘密"
Took neoprints with Wan Ping, Bennett, Hsi Yin, Marlene, Avan and Eva.
To my amazement,
The story plot is nice.
I don't mind watching it again.
My favourite part was the battle of the pianos and the twist of the story.
The lead actress, Lun Mei-Kwai, has charisma.
Hence, it was pleasing to watch the show.
Overall, it's an atypical show.
Not those kind that shows 2 lead actor/actress crossing the road
Thinking of each other
And not knowing they had just met.
-_-
Finally, I comprehended the theme song of "不能说的秘密".
Especially my favourite lyrics,
"最美的不是下雨天, 是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐"
As there was this scene in the show
Where Jay and the lead actress was 'hiding' from the rain.
In my perspective, Jay's crying and emo scene was hilarious.
However, he's acting has improved tremendously
I recommend it to my friends who haven catch it yet.
During the holidays,
Gonna sought the piano scores for it
It's time to visit Yamaha bookshop again.
:D